This is someone who has the best intentions.
Why don’t you get a REAL job?
Why don’t you be a REAL man?
Why don’t you believe a REAL religion?
Why don’t you be a REAL woman?
Do you realise something? The word REAL is defined by them.
They are really saying.
Why don’t you get a job like that one I hate for 8 hours a day?
Why don’t you be have like a man who get screwed by others the whole day?
They are trying to limit who you are, and make you suffer as they do.
Screw them. You know better. Go observe it and see what they really want.
What?!?!? Why would anybody curse themselves?
Think about it, what is a curse? A curse is anything that limits what you are or forces you to behave in a certain way. A fiction witch says, “You are a frog”, and you go around limited to croaking, hopping and eating flies.
Then what is that got to do with cursing yourself. Think about it again, when do you feel, “That is myself”. “That is me” “That behavior is what I believe in”. What is that? That is when you are familiar with something, when you are familiar with something, you are comfortable with it, when you are comfortable with it, you associate it with your inner core. But is it really?
“I can’t be a sales person”, “I can’t learn computers”, “I can’t learn to cook”, “I love to exercise”, “I love to rollablade, skydive” whatever stuff.
Why do you like something or dislike something? Its because you’ve done it and it brough some pleasure to you. If the pleasure happens a few times, suddenly you are comfortable with it and thats what you love. Conversely if you don’t have a positive experience, like getting rejected, or no sales when you are doing sales, that what happens. You go I hate being a salesman.
Think again, what are you doing, you are looking at past history to determine what you like or dislike. YOU LIMIT YOURSELF but ONLY LOOK AT THE PAST!
Who are the sucessful people, they are people who do not look at their past, everything is new, everything is like being in a kindergarten, its new and with no expectation of anything.
Sometimes you don’t even think you limit yourself. If you look at a girl and say “She’ll never like an engineer. (assuming you’re an engineer), you didn’t curse her. You cursed yourself, you set a limit on what you expect, hence you never look for the signs that she might actually like you. You only behave and look for rejection.
Curse yourself?!? Yes you do, and practically everyday you do. A lot of recent spiritual teachers are trying to teach people, stop placing limits on yourself, there are no limits only those you create.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Quite true almost everything. Except the education part. Education to me is a world view changer. The more you learn, the more options the way you view the world.
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My ex-colleague came back from her holiday. Not knowing which flight or even time of the return flight, I decided it would be nice to SMS her when she gets back on New Years day.
So at 10.50pm I sent an SMS, saying welcome back. She replied, that it was amazing accurate timing to send a SMS just immediately after she landed. I told her that I didn’t even know when the flight or what time she was coming back.
In reality, I was watching some TV series, suddenly I had this feeling, ah she’s back. So I SMS her 
Cool! Psychic powers at work! Muhahaha (Evil laughter!)
Must have spooked her 
hehehe
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Well a Merry Christmas to one and all.
I’m so glad its over! Its always a work Christmas for me. Starts of with spring cleaning, then putting up The Tree, then moving furniture out of the way, put out chairs all waiting for the families to start popping by. For the last 3 years, we have been catering dinner. It used to be we actually cooked all of the food for about 30-40 people. No mean feat, especially while you’re cooking other friends will pop in and out throughout the day you’re cooking all the while expecting you to feed them while your cooking for the night. AND they will opportune to drop in between 12-2pm. Sometimes up to 4pm.
Don’t they realise we’re already working like mad dogs during the day? Sigh, so much for thinking of others over thinking of their tummies. Sigh! Well, now we cater, a lot less work, we even gave up doing the turkey! Woot! 6 hours of oven watching over!
What worst, is the 3 hours of washing and clearing after the party. Clean up usually takes up to 3-4am. Now with catering .. about midnight.
Now that my sister’s friends know that I can cook, they want me to cook for them for lunch.. No bloody way!!
Amazing, its no rest for the “wicked” coming boxing day. 10am.. first visitors arrive.. sigh..
Thank goodness only a handful, after that once again, moving furniture.
Its over! And so much left overs.. turkey, sausages, chicken curry, noodles, cake, prawns, leg of ham! Well, only good for my expanding waist line hahaha!
Interesting enough my neighbour came down for dinner. After talking for a while, a little high from the kirsch in the truffle (yum, sugie cake with kirsch poured over covered with rich sweetened cream and lots of fruits like strawberries, mangoes, peaches.), found out that the wife is also a sensitive like me. Heh.. he complains that she can always know what he’s thinking and can sometimes put thoughts in his mind. Ha! Wonderful, another person to chat about these stuff. Quite funny couple.
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Okay that friend of mine (the one who decided to tell me she once considered marriageable) Has gotten me some more shirts from her samples at a Clothing design place for an american brand.
My collegue thinks she is on to me.. no no no .. no married woman please.
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Ha! As my female collegues will answer in the affirmative. That our boss is the ultimate in ignoring people if he chooses The women all hate it so much, I guess its an ingrain thing of needing to feel needed. Social creatures women are so such “punishment” works the best.
Unfortunately for him, most of his staff are guys are the moment, we love it that he ignores us so one of the guys is the main management material. Fortunately or not, he’s the go between for all of us. Interesting enough even he finds that he’s begining to think like the boss. Is that good or bad? Nobody knows.
Watched a program last night, about millionaires. Saw only a few minutes of it. One of the people commented that most self-made multi-millionaires tend to be more supportive of the staff then others. The principle being, if I can help you perform your best, the company benefits, the staff benefits and ultimately the boss benefits.
The other comment that was made was “the happier you are at work, the better you perform”. The general comment, was this was a load of crap. When has anybody gotten a paycheck that says “for your happiness at work”. Nobody is always happy all the time. There are always moments of happiness and unpleasantness. If you focus on making sure that the boss looks good, he’ll look out for you.
Is this always true? I wonder. The question is why do you want to be under that boss all the time. The unfortunate truth is that many people have no idea who really performs well. The one who make presentations or the one who did the work to create the presentations? Truthfully, that’s what politicians are every where. We can do without them, but we need them to get the masses together. No I don’t necessarily mean government types, but also those within companies.
Still do we want to be that? Why the hell not!?!? More money.. but you’ll have to be careful of people like me who might just for the fun of it spoof information just to damm the speaker. hehehe. Then provide the correct solution.
Still we all have to sell ourselves to work. Unfortunately, the job hunting is so massive nowadays, that we have to be able to sell ourselves in 3 seconds or less, or else our resumes get dumped into the “waste”. Learning to bring out a irresistible offer of our skills and knowledge is the goal for me in the coming month.
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Finally results out…
Yeah lousy 3rd class honours.. well to be expected.. never did study hard..
but so glad its over.
One of my friends commented “Congrats michael. Well, so long as you felt it was worth it and got something out of it. Girls maybe?”
I replied “Yup sure did, had this crazy malaysian accountant that followed me around, always sat near me. One day, some of the others noticed that I talked to her. They said, “How come you’re talking to her.. don’t you know she’s nuts?” Then of course we began a lively converstation of “What else did she do to show she was nuts!” hehehe Man, we all had a really good laugh about it.. brings back fun memories.
During those days I made sure I was sitting on the side of the classroom and tried to make sure another friend was sitting next to me so that I didn’t have to sit next to her.
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This morning I brought my mom to church as usual. In front of us, sat a father and his aultruistic daughter. Everyone around them, watch them, I believe in curiosity and saddness for him.
After mass, my mother made a comment on “How poor thing. How ker lian”
The strange thing is I saw them in a totally different light. From what I could see and sense, the daughter’s soul was almost in a constant symphony, where she was playing various instruments, the flute, drums and whatever else took her fancy. There was a sublime joy in the movements and the rythms of her actions. Would not we all love to live a life in joy of doing what we want? In total spiritual and emotional congruence to live in joy and happiness. This was what I saw in the girl. She may never live a normal life as we think she should. She may never be a great composer or musician. She may not even have someone later in life to love her but in her own world, would she find comfort? I dearly hope so. Although in this life, we ourselves may never see or experience that joy, I think its something we should strive for. Or even if we do see the chance for it, will we let go of what we think people would say of us and simple be in the moment, be in the now and experience the unlimited joy? I hope one day, I will find that thing that will show me this.
The father show me yet a different side. He was amazingly tender and loving to her daughter. He even greeted all round him with hope and happiness. That surprised me and those around me, most poeple would not want to attract attention if they have a child like that. He didn’t feel that way, I felt he felt proud that he had a daughter no matter what she is. The love he show was astounding, its something that I don’t know if I can even hope to achieve. Limitless and without reservations. All religions want you to have that. But none of them tells you how to achieve that. I hope one day I can learn, from whatever source to love people like that. Unlimited and without reservations. That would be the greatest gift that could be bestowed on me.
Its been a surprising few weeks for me. Been feeling more, been appreciating more been living more. One of these days I’ll write about the meditation I’ve found recently about being the fountain of love, beacon of love. And how to finally let go of old grudges, old anger, old memories that always seem to resurface, when something similiar happens.
I’ve been calmer and more compassionate lately. I hope that continues to grow.
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My friend and I both have this problem. After a time getting to know us either through schools or internet or whatever, these women will make a comment like “I don’t understand why you are not married. Your kind, understand, cook well, <fill in whatever positive comments>, but why don’t you have a girlfriend or a wife.” Now we both will answer “You’re single, do you want to marry me?” The girl will inevitably go “err aahh.. no not really.” Its like a universal truth for the both of us. Yes its sad and strange, for me this has happened since my university days, 1989-1993 until 2007.. think about it, its 14 years.
Until yesterday night, I met an old friend whom I got to know maybe 7-8 years ago over ICQ I think. She’s had a hard life with love (divorced), with her own spiritual abilities and unexpected spiritual problems. In an age (10 years ago) where people still look down on divorcees, not so much today but still true somewhat.
She met with me after not meeting up for over 4 years, of course I said yes even though she’s married and I made sure it was alright with her and her husband first. This woman is exceedingly beautiful. She has the kind of look that electrifies many males younger and older. Shes my age group now but still looks very good.
After talking sometime about all kinds of stuff that has happened in our lives, she says, “When we got to know each other over the internet and other conventional conversations, I thought here was a man that was kind, hardworking and would never cheat, had many positive attributes. I thought that you would be a man that I could marry and was trying to decided should I go after you.” Thud.. my jaw dropped.. what the hack?!?!
“After you came back from the US, you came over to my place and since then and after, you only showed respect and friendship, I wasn’t sure if I should chase you or not.”
She goes on to say, that I should lose some weight as I don’t look physically attractive (yup I totally agree with that), so that women could look at me and appreciate me for what I am. But only a mature women would understand not a young person.
Ah well darn there goes all those pretty young things! hahah still I was astounded.. here I thought I would forever be thought of as a ”good friend” never as a lover or husband material. Here was a woman who shattered that belief.. for that I thank her forever.
It was a good weekend.. see my other post on aultruistic love.
