Searching for spiritual learning

My friend and I both have this problem. After a time getting to know us either through schools or internet or whatever, these women will make a comment like “I don’t understand why you are not married. Your kind, understand, cook well, <fill in whatever positive comments>, but why don’t you have a girlfriend or a wife.” Now we both will answer “You’re single, do you want to marry me?” The girl will inevitably go “err aahh.. no not really.” Its like a universal truth for the both of us. Yes its sad and strange, for me this has happened since my university days, 1989-1993 until 2007.. think about it, its 14 years.

Until yesterday night, I met an old friend whom I got to know maybe 7-8 years ago over ICQ I think. She’s had a hard life with love (divorced), with her own spiritual abilities and unexpected spiritual problems. In an age (10 years ago) where people still look down on divorcees, not so much today but still true somewhat.

She met with me after not meeting up for over 4 years, of course I said yes even though she’s married and I made sure it was alright with her and her husband first. This woman is exceedingly beautiful. She has the kind of look that electrifies many males younger and older. Shes my age group now but still looks very good.

After talking sometime about all kinds of stuff that has happened in our lives, she says, “When we got to know each other over the internet and other conventional conversations, I thought here was a man that was kind, hardworking and would never cheat, had many positive attributes. I thought that you would be a man that I could marry and was trying to decided should I go after you.” Thud.. my jaw dropped.. what the hack?!?!

“After you came back from the US,  you came over to my place and since then and after, you only showed respect and friendship, I wasn’t sure if I should chase you or not.”

She goes on to say, that I should lose some weight as I don’t look physically attractive (yup I totally agree with that), so that women could look at me and appreciate me for what I am. But only a mature women would understand not a young person.

Ah well darn there goes all those pretty young things! hahah still I was astounded.. here I thought I would forever be thought of as a ”good friend” never as a lover or husband material. Here was a woman who shattered that belief.. for that I thank her forever.

It was a good weekend.. see my other post on aultruistic love.